Guardians Of The Precious

‘We can confirm that you are finally able to take your baby home’. Woooohooooo! Amazing news, right? Well in reality my answer was somewhat mixed between Yes and No. Of course, I was overjoyed at the thought of taking our baby home and this was good news because it displayed that his condition was progressing. Yet I had anxiety about taking my baby home with this condition that I knew so little about. If you think back to my last post I spoke about finding the monitors at the hospitals scary at first but then they became a source of information. I now relied on them to tell me if there was anything wrong, so what would I do without them, how would I know if he wasn’t doing well and if something was going terribly wrong? Of course, the Doctors told me about any warning signs and what to look out for if he required to be submitted to hospital, but I was not satisfied. I took our baby home and it was soooooo nice being back in the comfort of my own home. Although...

To all the Men reading this post, please do not stop reading when you see that the post is about a caesarean section (C-section). To those who have never had a C-section do not switch off. Whatever I mention will always be of some benefit to someone, better yet someone you might know. Even if you have not undergone a C-section yourself, it can still affect you in one way or another. Everyone's road to recovery after a C-section will vary in some way, shape or form, I decided to share my experience as it might help someone who is going through the same thing. Although each experience is individual, there are things that we will all experience. I personally found recovering from a C-section to be quite a horrific experience, I’m not too sure as to whether that is because of what I was going through with the baby or because it was physically so painful. It not only took a toll on the affected area but also my whole body and state of mind. The first time I attempte...

Shocked, confused, overwhelmed and sick. These are a few of the range of emotions that can help to express how I felt when I received the news that there appeared to be a complication with my unborn child at 35 weeks of pregnancy. Due to a pre-existing medical condition I was recalled to have a extra scan. When compared to the other two scans, this one appeared to take forever. My husband and I were rather anxious as we saw scans as something of a formality and the thought of something being wrong did not even begin to enter our thoughts. The sonographer explained that she could see an abnormality in the baby's brain but was unsure as to what it was. She informed us that she would have to seek the thoughts and opinions of a consultant but that unfortunately they had all gone home for the night. At first it didn't really sink in and I didn't really take it seriously. The following day I was called to come back for another scan where I was told that the baby appeared to...

I never imagined that I would spend so much time at a children's hospital, I never prepared for a sick child, I didn't see this coming, I wasn't prepared for this. In April 2016 my life was turned upside down. This caused me to re-evaluate everything, and my perspective on most things changed.  I was stuck at the hospital with my child, normal life as we knew it was no longer normal, but life continued. I was not working at the time, so I was at the hospital for as long as I could stay awake. My husband on the other hand was working and had already taken so much time off, so he had to go back. I haven't told you what happened yet I know but that will come later.  At times I was left alone, and when the doctors would come around on ward round, they didn't always come with good news, these are the times I wanted to scream and cry, but no one was there, sure the staff at GOSH (Great Ormond Street Hospital) were amazing but they were busy and had a job to do. ...